secrethushwhisper

something is lost

2011-12-07T11:12:00.003+08:00

we might have to say goodbye

what are we starting to forget

we might have to say goodbye

what are we starting to loose

in the meantime,
to azmir abdullah

solace

2011-11-24T13:54:00.002+08:00

just a solace for pain, nothing more

insyallah

2011-11-19T02:52:00.006+08:00

"Good intentions may do as much harm as malevolence if they lack understanding"

hmph, I was watching Jane Eyre movie on DVD but because of stupid dvd cetak rompak I could not get to the ending part. What a ruiner you cetak rompak!

Well, you get back for what you pay for r-rr-rr-rrright y'all?

Go climb the wall Spider-Cammy!

contemplating

2011-11-18T02:11:00.004+08:00

the conspiracy of coincidence,

oh hell yeah

gone

2011-11-14T12:04:00.001+08:00

it's never too late

yet

it's going to be a big lost,

just so you know

i miss you

2011-11-13T01:15:00.004+08:00

everytime,

every single time,

every time i'm a step closer to the other side,

i can't help but to look back on the rear view mirror,

then that's when i'm always stuck in between

of the boundary line,

of feelings.

gah!

2011-11-10T10:59:00.002+08:00

no matter who you are,

what's your religion,

what's your principles,

where you come from,

the most important thing is;

you know who you are

and you have a genuine heart

mistakes

2011-10-21T01:59:00.001+08:00

again, another year round.

again and again and again

and again..

jahit makes me go woot woot !

2011-10-17T02:04:00.006+08:00

What I did on last Friday;

helped my sister to sew a half vintage apron as a present to her bestfriend, Hazreena Hamzah!

Isn't it so cute? :D

So here are the results; Good huh for a first timer? Not bad! *(self-compliment)

Front Elevation

Rear Elevation

And now, I just want to learn to sew baju kurung so bad.
So, so bad.

sigh

2011-10-10T10:13:00.010+08:00

You said you love her, but you leave her instead.
Do you really love her,

or it's just an artificial feelings created.

Because sooner or later, you will forget her
eventually..

This is just a beginning,
a reality; to accept

But, She just always wish so hard that,

She'll forever be the crown of your heart

Tapi sampai bila perasaan ni?

Trust is like an eraser, it gets smaller and smaller after every mistakes.

Don't give up on me baby

2011-10-04T02:55:00.002+08:00

Drinking old cheap bottle of wine,
Sit talking up all night,
Doing things, we haven't for a while

a while...

..

2011-09-30T11:00:00.001+08:00

why did you do this to me?

trouble

2011-09-22T03:41:00.002+08:00

i have a troublesome heart.
and no wonder why he left.

i'll lose many many time.
no need to try anymore.

hairankah

2011-09-17T02:54:00.007+08:00

Hati sapa yang sakit ?
Bukan sapa pun tahu.

Siapa yang akan mati ?
Bukannya kau ambil peduli.

Happy Ending

2011-09-11T02:15:00.003+08:00

After rainstorm comes rainbow and at the end of the rainbow, there's a pot of gold.

No treasures come without a map of challenges

After rainstorm comes rainbow

2011-09-11T02:07:00.004+08:00

A friend of mine chatted and told me that she had went to the movie alone. Then, find out that the cinema house was empty. And mistakenly watched Chinese Love Story. So she cried, and cried through the movie since there was nobody there to know or see that she was crying out loud.

But at the end of the movie, there was a cinema guy who had been listening to her cries all along.

Starsign

2011-09-06T05:17:00.004+08:00

I re-quote this from twitter;

"When a #Scorpio falls in love with you, you won't know what hit you and neither will they. They don't fall in love often"

I cannot say that horoscope are absolute facts. But it does reveal out the truth in me.
I am so a Scorpio.

Dawn

2011-09-06T05:12:00.005+08:00

So, I had just ran out of energy in The Sims Social at Facebook. I supposed I should turn my focus on television, which TLC is now showing Samantha Brown's Asia; specifically eyes on Japan. And I came about this saying "Kimono, a wearable art", how Japanese can be very detailed and so psychedelic.

They have the attitude of wonder.

p/s: Even their chopsticks have gender

Cultivating

2011-09-05T21:07:00.004+08:00

First of all, I would like to wish all muslims, Happy Eid Mubarak. Hope that we all had a SUCCESS in our deeds during Ramadhan towards Allah swt :) Bravo guys!

So it's the ..... erm, Raya ke- ermmm.. Not sure. Hahaha but well, I've decided that since I'll be going to start working this coming wednesday, I'll make a new resolution to Puasa 6 during this syawal month. And it's my first time as I never did puasa 6, ever. Hahaha.

So, last but not least, semoga semua akan berjalan dengan sempurna.

p/s: visited Arwah Mama's kubur before went back to Subang. And guess what, for the first time I'm the one who found her grave this year. Bravo najwa :)

always remember this number pls Najwa, MD 7628 --> Tips: Her birthday is 7th Feb so 7/2 :)

as if

2011-08-27T02:17:00.002+08:00

I'm doing okay
I'm not

I'm doing okay

No, I'm not but I'm doing okay
I am not, I am okay

I am not okay.

frivolous

2011-08-23T06:27:00.002+08:00

Don't say it is serious if it's not.

If it was just for the play,
I'd still play along even so.

and I'd still play along,

still.

once

2011-08-04T01:18:00.001+08:00

you once whispered words to me, "wondering anybody loved each other like we do"

janji la hai!

2011-07-22T04:55:00.002+08:00

i give promise to myself :)
so keep it .

let me make it this time around.
just for once

scary

2011-07-21T03:28:00.003+08:00

people says life changes and challenges you.

i might say that im used to having changes but the challenges,.. that's scary.
however, it is said, challenges keeps you moving forward and that changes keeps you going alive. not to mention, becoming stronger!

with this challenges, does it helps me grow in becoming more mature in the sense of understanding life in deeper meanings?

is this choice that makes it right for me? the stepping stone
am i ready for all this?

tenang,tenang dan tenang

2011-06-26T22:04:00.003+08:00

the songs and lyrics.
just so remarkable.

hey, is it ever good to have an open diary?

well, everybody does judgement. i can't stop them,
right?

read when you can, but not all writings really represent me.
it just the moment that does it.

i hope u know. u, know. u.

harta najwa

2011-06-23T08:06:00.006+08:00

funny that is when you are feeling ungrateful.
god takes it away from you in a blink of an eye.

like i said before, it's either you win one and lose one. or you just lose both.
yes, and i lost both of my most precious treasure.

one is my friendship, two is my relationship.
why it happened? i don't have the answer.
what can happen next? i don't know.
since consequence can occur due to the effect of reaction
what will ever happened if i do this or that?

what shall i do? shall i let it go or shall i do something?
however, it happened that i already did tried all my might. but nothing changed.

i might as well let it go then.

p/s: patience is a friend indeed.

nothing is pure anymore but solitude

2011-06-21T04:20:00.001+08:00

honestly i tried to avoid it, honestly

kusam

2011-06-18T16:11:00.002+08:00

life is a dull, i need something new to enhance and upgrade my very own being.

:'(

2011-06-13T22:37:00.002+08:00

I was content, but now, I just don't know what I want

pemikiran

2011-06-04T03:34:00.002+08:00

my thoughts are empty
with words of silence
with a hollow sleepy mind
i am fast asleep
thank you all
for i'm at rest

in astonish
i grin and sneer
but again not with a harmful smile

apakah?

2011-06-02T00:28:00.001+08:00

what can i do now?

apa?

2011-05-31T17:35:00.003+08:00

baru je buat beberapa posting pasal wheel of life.. suddenly semua benda sudah kena tarik.. senang dan begitu cepat.. no more ups, no more downs. all i have is bottom now.. but i will always believe. believe that everything is going to be better. for sure.

apalah akan berlaku selepas ini?

pasrah

2011-05-31T15:55:00.001+08:00

i've tried all my might
but all i've gotta do now is smile

you are one of a kind

a little bit more

2011-05-25T04:32:00.004+08:00

fuh to the statement below, here a little bit of some positivity.

it was sibling night out because we were terribly hungry. so we went to some place where all we can eat!

afterwards our stomach go "ouuhh la la la" and "bloop bloop" for being too bloated.

shit

2011-05-24T07:28:00.001+08:00

i realized that my blog had been all about love

and i hate it. majorly

ba ba black sheep

2011-05-24T05:59:00.003+08:00

here comes my regular blah-blah talk that always make no sense.

earlier just now i heard a news about the acid splasher being around Subang Jaya, that creeps me out. enough already for making me being more paranoid already.

paranoid and insomniac

and what happened when i become paranoid and insomniac

thus begins the re-runs of the monologues in my head

just like the return of the hunger pangs in my stomach

so in the comfort of my own bedroom, it feels less lonely when i can actually give myself a space to talk to my own self and listening to depressing misery songs . even a huff and puff could give me my own pleasure of moments. less lonely moments

simply being najwa, less lonely moments makes it merely lonesome.

baffling.

relying

2011-05-23T02:50:00.003+08:00

in return for an expectation is hard to please

where can all the hopes be gone?

who can i speak to

for all the reliable moments

maybe i am all alone after all

But tell me now where was my fault, in loving you with my whole heart
Lead my to the truth and I will follow you with my whole life

irony

2011-05-23T01:24:00.004+08:00

the irony is that, it doesn't have anything to do with weddings!

the last weekend i went to visit arwah mama. i went together with nadhrah and memeh *thats the reason for the bunga rampai above :) and it was easy finding my mother's grave when we go with memeh, it took like 3 minutes only to find the right place. if i had went with nadhrah alone, we might have been sesat like everytime we went visit her. sometimes it takes almost 15mins to find it.

it's hard to express my feelings here. in simple, i just miss her a lot.

p/s: saja menggatal pakai inai, hadiah inai dari memeh yang baru pulang mengerjakan umrah. the inai looks so pretty on my nails <3

pleasures

2011-05-20T22:47:00.005+08:00

i had been here in Johor Bahru for quite some time and my intention coming to Johor was actually because of some bazaar event that i had to attend to at first. but it lead on to actually making a realization to our plan of making homestay a dream come true.

as you can see below, how serene is this place? i can't ask for more content feeling than ever. living here already makes everything a bliss and wonder. not like in subang and kl, where too many negativity auras surrounding us. oh, the surroundings actually reminds me of the Totoro's neighbourhood by the way! though my "kampung" not actually quite kampungish since its very near to bandar which takes only 5minutes. nonetheless, still it gives me the excitement as i see it in the totoro movie! suchh serenityyy

anyways, i can see also that it made my father seem to be more happy and peace as well. he should move to jb sooner, that ought to do better for his health and psychology. hmph. he definitely has to. no doubt.

since i'm writing a post about the delights and joy of my being, here some of my guilty of pleasures i'd like to share.

oh my guilty pleasures!

mood sweet

2011-05-20T03:41:00.006+08:00

yes, yes, i know, i did once say that i did not ever want to write anything that has got to do anything about my love life ever. but hey, what can a girl do when she is helplessly in love? i also did said that, this blog of mine is a place for expression anyways. so don't like then don't bother to read. ala, as if there's anyone reading. pfft.

and here it goes, uh, i got all lovey dovey just because of listening to this one song by Mindy Gledhill - All about your heart.

this song, aish, it is true what this particular someone once told me, a music's impact is an extraordinary one.

;(

suddenly i had this urge feeling, of longing. i loathe this sentiment. sigh

the best of both worlds

2011-05-19T07:30:00.008+08:00

i read my previous posting again, and it fell upon me to read this one entry talking about wheel of life, when it is up and when it is down. there are two sides to this wheel right? there's a point in life when, ops wait, not a point but several point in life when this always occur. not occasionally.

and in my current event now, things had changed so tremendously and dramatically, baik dalam relationship ataupun friendship. its proven that sometimes we cannot ask for both world, we cannot be greedy and wanting everything to be in place. its either you win one and lose one.

however, the world is cruel, that you can lose both but never win both. like it or not thats how life works. and i say, thing thats are worst can never be better just as it is in your expectation. it can only be static. there's no forever happy ending, there are never one.

in my world it is. if yours don't, then lucky you :)

p/s: my message to you is that just embrace the time as much as you can as long as you get to :)

update again

2011-05-19T07:12:00.003+08:00

i think i just replenish and rejuvenate my once profound love of blog writing.

i should write often now since my blog is updated with new refresh layouts. and yet again, i dont bother if anyone ever reads it. i'm doing this because i need to pour out my emotions, it's just too much and i can't handle my emotions alone in my own monologue no more. i can say that this is again a new profound ways of therapy other than lashing it out on twitter :)

looking forward in seeing you. buh-bye love!

mood swing

2011-05-19T06:41:00.007+08:00

for a long time of not being able to be viewed by others, i now once again, re-open me blog for others to read. even though, most of my writings are just rubbish and bull. i had never ever once think that i would have anyone interested in my stories slash blogs. so i actually could not care less about this blog being private or public to others.

so here goes me stories for what i've done for today; for a long time of not being out and about around shopping mall, me and nadhrah had a little treat for ourselves today. we went and had a good movie time out. the movie is called "water for elephant". indeed we had our joy and moments watching the movies for its been so long that we've ever watched a movie. so we did enjoy our time! and thats about it. boring right?

well, let me tell you what happened the whole week then. so okay, me, papa and nadhrah had been working our butts of in making this homestay a reality. we make sure that we had painted all the walls, all the sections with new coloured paint. and yes we did! the whole week done! so now the only task left is to paint the rooms. but me and nadhrah are going back off to KL this coming sunday. so........we'll just let papa handle whatever he can handle for a moment there. since we'll be back not a moment long!

thats about it folks ;)

had a good fun time for today yeah. buh-bye!

keseorangan

2011-04-28T02:22:00.000+08:00

loner, again a loner.

am i always gonna be like this? sigh

persoalan

2011-04-03T21:08:00.001+08:00

bukan soal matang atau tak matang

soal hidup

the long

2011-03-30T03:58:00.001+08:00

the long awaited moment finally arrived.

say what, studio? no more!

earn

2011-03-29T02:23:00.003+08:00

i walk up, i walk up the mountain,

i walk up today.......

i want to see all

see clearly..

i walk up today...what are we waiting for

today is the best we had

what are we waiting for just pick up your shoes and go

2011-03-28T21:46:00.001+08:00

take a look at yourself

sayu

2011-03-26T05:30:00.003+08:00

its the exhilaration of life, the moments passed

thank you for making me stronger,

thank you for making me grow,

thank you for making me see,

thank you for making me feel,

thank you for making me open,

thank you for making me, me.

you will always be remembered,

thanks, you

promise

2011-03-26T03:47:00.004+08:00

its the struggle to continue that counts,

it makes you even stronger,

growing to become stronger and stronger

and stronger

dont worry its okay,

though the path to future is still blank as a piece of white paper,

it will soon be filled with thousands of written words

and one day will become a story of your own to tell

insyallah, everything will be okay

and i promise myself this :)

Earn

2011-02-10T02:03:00.004+08:00

Respect is something that is to be earned,

same goes with trust, we cannot just simply believe in it

If we do, then that's when you are called as fools.

curahan

2011-02-09T03:06:00.001+08:00

to my lovely idea

flourish,

please bloooom

and EXPLODE!

sad ending

2011-02-03T02:37:00.002+08:00

it is as if i am the wind blown from the south to the north

sailing away to some place unknown

with hidden messages waiting to be unveiled

as no intention in heart without reasoning

i am a sailing boat looking for an island to harbour

2011-01-24T10:03:00.003+08:00

So, let's show the world, that you can shine as glowy as the moon, as shiny as the stars, as bright as the sun :)

That's why I pick you, yellow

I call you out, yellow

shine

2011-01-24T06:27:00.001+08:00

they said let the sun come, to show us that tomorrow is eventual, we will know when the day is done

let the sun shine soak, let it come

blank

2011-01-24T06:18:00.002+08:00

This is,

*speechless*

open up my brain, and you will be amused

as you, you got it all

syndrome

2011-01-19T01:01:00.002+08:00

lets call it a syndrome
my laziness is a habit that is so hard to be kicked out
:'( sigh

maybe theres just no inspiration not because of laziness
whatever. fullstop. end of topic.

yesterday, i had a lot of phone calls. the phone always ring when im in the state of the highest level of sleepiness. does it always have to ring at that time of moment?! anyhoo, so, many people called me last night, and it was not any ordinary phone calls conversations, but an intense one..but i can feel the pain.. and im saying; "i feel you people!" well....

however, on the next day, a meet up with reen to wangsa walk was not all intense, it was quite enjoyable , we had great time pampering ourselves; manicure, eyebrow threading, and so on..

yet later on in the evening, an intense conversation was brought up again in the meeting of alya and illi.. though it was a nice one,...maybe i just enjoy their company

well....

time goes by, and we really are getting older, therefore the type of conversation we conversed are also different now..

growing up, is a major pain

fresh!

2011-01-17T00:46:00.004+08:00

Something yellow to spark some happiness as they said the sun shines so bright when it hits the most happiest time! So, i said, Hello Yellow and welcome!

BOOM BOOM! Even brighter than the MOON MOON MOON!

harta karun

2011-01-12T20:57:00.002+08:00

the greatest treasure are those invisible to the eyes but found by the heart

and the heart has reason that reason does not understand

shut

2010-12-29T13:26:00.002+08:00

silence moment

happy new year!
put your santa's hats on peeps ;)

baisse

2010-12-22T02:22:00.000+08:00

everything is falling apart

Sad

2010-12-20T02:27:00.002+08:00

Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens
Bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens
Brown paper packages tied up with strings
These are a few of my favorite things......

"I simply remember my favourite things,
and then I dont feel so bad"

You said it Julie Andrews! This is true enough!

memento mori

2010-12-20T01:56:00.001+08:00

in latin phrase, literally means, "remember your mortality", "remember you must die" or "remember you will die"

i find the words are beautiful indeed

new found hobby?

2010-12-19T05:47:00.003+08:00

i wish to create some more plushie..

i wish to start on making hair accessories..

i wish to start learning how to sew a baju kurung!

i want to learn sewing so badly!

i hope this passion last for a long time!

a wish to the tooth fairy

2010-11-29T06:20:00.003+08:00

my wisdom tooth is growing, again. but this time no pain, not even a pinch. that's something to be glad about. fuh, because this one time, i had my wisdom tooth growing the first time, it gave me one hell of a pain with fever as the cherry on top. so, yeah, i am glad there's not a single pain :) and now, i'm starting to feel that its gonna grow one whole part of the tooth in complete, and i will be able to chew and bite something with this tooth :) another yeay for me! no more space of meat there, it will only be filled with bones, that is the "wisdom tooth"!

on top of that, i wish that it will bring me along a wiser mind as well,

since it is so called "wisdom tooth" therefore let it be a newfound wisdom for me too!

date

2010-11-29T05:59:00.003+08:00

what date is today, i think its almost the end of the November.

I cant believe that the days can pass by so quickly and my holidays are only 2 weeks away before the class starts! ;( this is such a bummer.

I wish i could have more holiday + lazy time. because i guess, thats what i do best. ;( i have no passion, no interest. wait there, i do have interest, but no passion, and when i say passion, i mean passion with fire roaring out the breath of a dragon ;(

As the phrase goes, Nothing good ever happens after 2.00am. I am believing in it now. This occur due to the sleepless nights and when that does happened, I couldnt let my brain to even shut for one moment to not think about the ugly track of mind. sigh.

where do i find the energy and the soul for passion . help me find it .

sigh, i might as well die. it is for me to find and not for people to help me with it.

darn, i am in the dead zone of zombies. thanks najwa.

why

2010-11-27T04:36:00.001+08:00

why do i feel this kind of feeling.

i feel empty. alone. lonely.

why at the first place, i felt this feeling?

my treasure

2010-11-22T05:25:00.004+08:00

I will keep my treasure, as long as God would let me,
as long as God give me the reason to believe in it.

And I say, I'm believing, everyday

YOU ARE MY WHOLE

rimas

2010-11-17T01:17:00.002+08:00

semak

i am just one of those little things, life is far more greater than i could ever be

Adorable

2010-11-12T22:22:00.003+08:00

i do so think that this is so ridiculously, unbelievably, so so adorable!

let me explain, that the picture above is the picture of Theodore Seville and Eleanor Miller in the chipmunks movies AKA Azmir Abdullah and Najwa Saifudin

everybody say "AUUUWWWWWWWW" altogether!

bintang

2010-11-09T22:44:00.001+08:00

Just like a star across my sky

attempt

2010-11-06T01:02:00.002+08:00

my , new , attempt

sleeping

2010-11-05T12:25:00.009+08:00

yesterday i couldn't sleep and somehow my mind came across the thought of dying in sleeping. and then i got another scare (lately i often imagine ghost staring me in the face), by thinking that, what will happened when i sleep and never wake up again?

don't mind the world around, but mind the thought of the life after. my heartbeat was unusually beating hard.

thus i got scared even while shutting my eyes. but then again, the sun still shines through my window once i opened my eyes the day after. but.... will i ever be ready?

mercy

2010-11-03T04:18:00.000+08:00

i wish and pray so hard for every bits will be a bless indeed

twenty three

2010-10-30T04:21:00.002+08:00

as i am getting older i am beginning to be more sensitive and a big coward.

a definite BIG coward.

pink-ish

2010-10-29T04:42:00.001+08:00

very pinkish
so blushy and so bloomish
i wish every bits to be a bless indeed

CONTEMPLATING AGAIN

2010-10-27T01:28:00.001+08:00

ALWAYS CONTEMPLATING.

I NEED RESULTS

AND I HATE FELLOW!
SQUATTING IS ALWAYS MEANT TO BE AFTER 12.00PM WHY SUDDENLY IT CHANGED TO 8.00PM?

why do we even call it squatting. uuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

new love

2010-09-16T02:15:00.005+08:00

i have found a new love hobby :) and im really getting into it.

but my excitement always last for not long, when suddenly boredom strikes, i might as well leave the hobby alone and never touching it again.

nevertheless! never let negativity leads your determination!

this is how your inspiration find your way to you! indulge the moment ;)

have a good time playing it. enjoy and embrace it!

kring! kring!

someone

2010-09-14T18:42:00.002+08:00

someone can be so kecoh-kecoh

someone can also be so kepoh-kepoh

someone can also be sooo judgemental

someone can also be soo selfish

but i hate someone who likes to take advantage on others when he actually feel like he can so. fuck

life

2010-09-08T04:10:00.002+08:00

life can happen in many, many ways. but it can also end in a split second. Today, someone i knew just passed away. life is too short to linger around dan dunia ini hanyalah sementara.

semoga Allah swt mencucuri rahmatnya. Amin

focus

2010-08-29T10:45:00.003+08:00

determination is what will do now

whatever that you are feeling now, stop and cherish the happiness that we've created together, i might just please myself with trying to be adaptable to any circumstances and i know that now; i do, for whatever reason; want that the most.

and i will oblige myself to be in tolerance and acceptance and i am firmly standing on my stance. just believe.

Smile

2010-08-29T10:36:00.003+08:00

sedang dengar semua lagu lama zaman 90's

had a great cardio work out just now.
and had a great huffing and puffing by the pool.
and had a great wonderful time surfing the net at the same time listening to old songs.

it suddenly occurs to me that, there just so many great wonderful memories created, and that i cannot feel that devastated enough not to look back in grief. things happened in miraculously wonderful way that why do i even bother to feel pity and sad for myself. even though worst thing had happened yet that memory can be veiled out easily. and why in any such manner that i should dig in and access back into old memories, looking back in plentiful of regrets when good things are laying out in front of me now. what i have now is so much better.

so much better.

solitude

2010-08-29T07:53:00.001+08:00

there is so many happy times.
there is just so many times, together

not good najwa!

2010-08-29T05:09:00.003+08:00

kalau tidur seharian, tak bagus untuk kesihatan! tidur 24jam buat kepala pening!
lagi-lagi bila tidur seharian mimpi pula semua mimpi buruk! jangan tidur jangan tidur!
tak guna tidur! kalau hati sedih pun senyum ja! pasti ada kebaikan akan berlaku!

sila ambil iktibar ye najwa! tapi yang pasti semua akan berjalan dengan okay dan baik seperti kamu harapkan! :) all you got to do is change your attitude!

GO!

the human heart

2010-08-26T22:23:00.004+08:00

the inscription on the Jane Eyre book from the adaptation of Definitely Maybe movie somehow stall me over and let me be inspired of the words;

To my darling daughter, April,

The human heart has hidden treasure. In secrets kept, in silence sealed. The thoughts,the hopes, the pleasures. Whose charms were broken if revealed.

From your loving father

just say it

2010-08-26T10:06:00.000+08:00

just say it to my face

because im going nowhere

:(

2010-08-20T18:44:00.002+08:00

why does the mind sets a boundary.

how to go over the borderline?

sinking

2010-08-09T02:57:00.001+08:00

it's like what shakepeare's saying,
the journey ends in lover's meeting.

how romantic :(

stupid girl

2010-08-09T01:25:00.002+08:00

how to go beyond,
when you can't think beyond.

how to suppress the limits,
when you set a limit.

how how how how how?

it is easy to be content in life, but the heart says not

contemplating

2010-08-08T20:33:00.000+08:00

aren't we all part of a society?

i wonder what happened to ones who does not believe in society?

haru biru

2010-08-05T21:33:00.002+08:00

today is just another day

i am feeling a little bit blue-ish today.
and i don't know why.

maybe, there's just so many ungrateful people out there.
and i sadly admit that i might be one of them.

but i can't help to feel this down.
if only u can throw away all your feelings and just be heartless
because this emotion is just too much.

when will the sky stops raining?

BAMBU FANTASTICO

2010-08-03T16:19:00.001+08:00

It's Illi's birthday and we are going to celebrato! wuuhu!
if i'm not lazy enough, i'll post the photo :P

drilled-drunken-drilled-dizzy

2010-07-30T12:04:00.003+08:00

a day of leisure in studio.

not leisure as in entertaining, but just a day of lingering around doing nothing in studio.

so boring, just not in the mood to start doing site model.

toodloo dear friend.

a picture of the worst and ugliest hair
p/s: i already cut it anyway

Today is Thursday

2010-07-29T16:58:00.000+08:00

Today is Thursday,
i have done approximately 60% of my collage project. only a touch of rendering is left.

Today is Thursday,
there is still too little progress on site model.

Today is Thursday,
I am fucking bored.

Today is fucking Thursday, and tomorrow is fucking Friday.

Hellooo Mr Super-Duper Friday! :)

stupid najwa

2010-07-26T03:34:00.002+08:00

yes, i changed the design of my blog.
:'( that is sad, because i really like the old background.
but silly old me, i did not save the background of the image, and thus, it is not permanent.

silly old najwa, she's so stupid and dumb also fatso.

p/s: regardless, this new design is quite awesome anyways.
brrr-rravoo u thang!

hitting rock bottom

2010-07-26T03:30:00.002+08:00

have you noticed, that i lose my focus whenever i'm with you,
in a hush, u give the rush, and make me lush

i am missing you
no one is "you"

mmmm

2010-07-21T16:07:00.001+08:00

feeling empty and so far away

....

just a temporarily moment.

after all that had happened,
and later,
in a nick of time, you suddenly realized that nothing actually happened.

*regrets

p/s: to a certain someone

2010-07-08T00:57:00.001+08:00

why does he always have to weigh in of what everything that i said as if i am against him. enough with the intonation issues! its last season for god sake! let it go already

days

2010-07-07T17:41:00.003+08:00

it is just one of those days,

those rainy days, all gloomy and cold,
sad and lonely

but everything seems fine,
just along as you are here with me

yeay

2010-06-20T02:07:00.001+08:00

everyday i'm in love

secret*hush*whisper

something is lost

solace

insyallah

contemplating

gone

i miss you

gah!

mistakes

jahit makes me go woot woot !

sigh

Don't give up on me baby

..

trouble

hairankah

Happy Ending

After rainstorm comes rainbow

Starsign

Dawn

Cultivating

as if

frivolous

once

janji la hai!

scary

tenang,tenang dan tenang

harta najwa

nothing is pure anymore but solitude

kusam

:'(

pemikiran

apakah?

apa?

pasrah

a little bit more

shit

ba ba black sheep

relying

irony

pleasures

mood sweet

the best of both worlds

update again

mood swing

keseorangan

persoalan

the long

earn

sayu

promise

Earn

curahan

sad ending

shine

blank

syndrome

fresh!

harta karun

shut

baisse

Sad

memento mori

new found hobby?

a wish to the tooth fairy

date

why

my treasure

rimas

Adorable

bintang

attempt

sleeping

mercy

twenty three

pink-ish

CONTEMPLATING AGAIN

new love

someone

life

focus

secrethushwhisper